Oh it's been so long!

I know it's been like a month or so but let me tell you these days just fly by. I have been very busy with school and Marshall, balancing both is tough. Math has never been my strongest suite and i have always struggled. I don't know what i am going to do though i have to have it to graduate college. I wish i didn't though, oh how i wish:0
But enough about school, now on to Marshall! He is doing so much and has me on my feet chasing after him all the time. We play this little game where i chase him, then he chases me (by chasing i mean crawling). Yup i get down on the floor with my son and crawl lol. He's got 3 teeth!!! Well the third one we just noticed last night and its barely popping through but soon it will be. I am still breastfeeding so this is bad news for me and my breast=/ 
But anything for baby right?! He hasn't really hurt me yet but if he does i may have to switch him to the bottle. I wanted to breastfeed till he was at least 1 but sometimes things don't go exactly how we plan. 
My last blog i talked about how he had an ear infection, it is much better by the way. But now he kind of has a cough so I"m a little upset about that because my child barely gets break when it comes to being sick. Nobody understand's why your so worried about it but they will be when they have kids. You other mom's know what i mean. Bunch of sleepless nights, fussy baby, both of you are miserable, and life's just not grand. 
But hopefully he will kick this cough in the butt and we won't have to go to the doctors!
Prayers.
The other day Matthew and I took Marshall to the park for his first time and it was fun.
He got to ride around in his wagon!

Look at my handsome man❤️ I love him soo much but he is a HANDFUl! 

What boys aren't? Lol

Signed, 

Marshalls Mommy:)

Mom's Know What I mean..

   It's been hard trying to keep up with my blog especially with the new year. Marshall has been very clingy and he will not let me have any time to myself. With that being said i haven't had the time to write, but I'm working on getting better at writing at least every other day. 

  I have quite a few things to talk about so lets get into this. First off the major thing is Marshall got crushed by his drawers last night!!! For you mom's with young babies you know how scary it is when your baby gets hurt. I know what your thinking, how could this happen?
I'm not going to lie we were watching a movie and there was this part i was pointing out to Matthew. All the sudden out of the corner of my eye i seen it happening, Marshall was getting tumbled upon by his plastic drawer set. By the time the words "Matthew" had come out of my mouth it was over. He was underneath it all and matt was trying to find him, he finally did and he was screaming in terror. I was so shocked i was laughing and worrying at the same time. 
Matthew on the other hand was so scared he was questioning our existence as parents. Things happen though and its not because were horrible parents. Marshall is a boy and a very ballsy boy at that. 
  Secondly he has another EAR INFECTION. Like poor child of mine how many ear infections are you going to get?
Lets not even answer that this time around, because there will probably be more. But i had this feeling that he did because he was waking up a lot in the middle of the night and he has been very cranky. So we go to the doctor today and sure enough he has one even a double one at that. We got a different prescription this time around and I'm a little nervous because it can cause RED POO and diarrhea. But in the end i just hope it works and helps him feel better.
  Lastly soon like 4 months my child will be 1! I just talked about this in my last blog but holy cow I'm shocked. Time is flying by and i don't know what to do or think.

Actually there is one more thing. I am going to be leaving my child on Thursday for probably the longest I've ever even thought about leaving him. I am freaking out about it because of the fact that my child is still breastfed and my supply could be at risk, also the fact that he will  have a damn melt down while I'm gone. But there is a KANE BROWN concert happening and i cannot miss this opportunity.!


   -Marshall's Mommy:)

The New Year..

A New Beginning.. 

Since i can remember celebrating new years with my boyfriends family, so 5 years ago. We have always went to his mother's and watched the ball drop so i was looking forward to that again. But instead we couldn't figure out the channel so to celebrate Marshall's first new year we watched pit bull's new year in Miami. 

Which wasn't the worst but it was DIFFERENT! We still all kissed and Marshall for some reason chose to eat instead of kissing mommy:/

After we discussed how disappointing it was to miss the ball we got over it and decided it was time to go home. Marshall at this point was very tired and i knew he would fall asleep in the car on the way home. Which mommy was right he did and as soon as we got home daddy took him out and he woke up. Well i thought for sure he would go to sleep but oh no. He thought it was time to party and stayed up till 2:30! *sigh* lol 

I was very tired by then and ready to hit the sack but we bickered back and fourth and he finally went down:)

The best part of my 2015 was having my bundle of joy and now I'm grateful we get to go into 2016 together. I get to watch him grow and we get to celebrate more time together and soon here in 4 months he will be 1!!! I wont even know what to do but i do know I'm looking forward to what this year will bring. What about you all?

   -Marshall's Mommy:)

This time of the year...

It's Christmas time and we all know how much it means to us to give our children the Christmas to remember but when your child is 8 months old, there really isn't a Christmas. When i say that i mean that he or she does not understand the concept. Right now all they like is the wrapping paper and bows. I was not planning on Marshall getting a lot from us because of that reason but my mother went all out. He got a new toy car/truck, paw patrol pillow, some decorative frames, a night light, and a calendar. My mommy brain is not allowing me to remember what else but he also got early gifts from grandpa and of course more toys... :) its not a bad thing but you would think when you look in my child's room: boy is he spoiled! His room is completely full of toys and a crib he will never sleep in. No he will but right now were working on naps at the moment. 

This was written sometime before Christmas. I just forgot because the holidays are hectic as we all know. But Marshall had a great Christmas and this is what Santa brought!

-Marshsall's Mommy:)

You see this? My child thinks he is grown and the fact about it all is, he is not. But he is growing very fast. He's so mobile now i can't look away for more than 5 seconds or he's halfway to the hallway. When your baby starts to grow and does things that you have been waiting to see, your shocked! But stuff like this, wears you out! Because you never knew how much one little person could be until this happens.. When he takes his first steps i will cry my eyes out but days later i will want to pull my hair out. The lamp will defiantly be knocked over, every corner and drawer will have to be baby proofed. Those days i shall sip on tequila lol. No I'm kidding but i will be on the move 24/7.
Just remember cherish every moment because they go by quick and you never know what tomorrow could bring..

     - Marshall's Mommy:)

Little Guy.. A couple of months ago!

He's my world:)

When it all happened..

When i was growing up i never thought i would be a parent one day. I always told my self i wouldn't become a mother and it wasn't because i didn't like children but because i was worried about the growing belly and the heartbreak if something bad was to happen. The biggest fear of them all were if i couldn't handle giving birth and died during delivery. What a drag that is right? But that's what comes with anxiety and panic.
As i met Matthew in high school and we started dating junior year, things changed for the both of us. We became ant-social and only hung out with each other, which all of you know that happens when your young. But my friendships did come to a halt and we weren't as close as we used to be. They were mad at me but then when they got boyfriends they did the same thing. Any-who back to our love story..

   After we dated all through out high school with a couple break ups in between. We made it to prom and graduation together<3 how exciting right?
Then after all that i signed up for college after half a year and he tried but didn't really want to go. I have been in school now for 3 or so years and am ready to graduate.

  But it was the summer of 2014 that i went to visit my dads side of the family with Matt and while we were gone he noticed somethings that i didn't. I was eating a lot more and gaining some weight, i was nauseous, and moody. I just thought i had something wrong like diabetes or some illness like that because the only thing i noticed was that i was SUPER tired.

  So when we got back the first thing i did was bought 2 pregnancy test and took them. Expecting negatives i looked down at that test like no big deal. But then it revealed 2 lines and my heart sunk, my eyes watered. I swear at that moment in time i probably had my first mini heart attack and i let out a scream followed by sobs. Matthew asked "why are you crying?"

WHY AM I CRYING???!!!!

Well lets see I'm PREGNANT and i have not graduated college nor have a good job like i would have wanted if i had planned to have children. So i set there freaking out worried about how i was going to tell my mom let alone Matt's family. As we were leaving to tell the news, here comes my mother. I get out of the car tears building up and i remember telling her please don't be mad at me. Then out came those wonderful words "I'M PREGNANT"

  Surprisingly she took it very well and i was shocked. I mean really shocked, my mom never took things like that easily. But after talking for a while we needed to go tell Matt's family. Pulling up to that house and walking inside to find nobody upstairs we headed down where his mom, sister, and niece awaited. They could tell something was up, i mean i looked a mess. Out poured the words to them too, and they were happy. His sister was really happy she was going to be a aunt. But that meant one more grandchild for them added to the mix.

  You know how the rest goes we went to appointment after appointment and we got to hear the heartbeat which was the most wonderful thing and actually made me realize there was a little human inside and i was his or hers provider and he or she needed me.


                                                                              - Marshall's Mommy